Finding My Stylistic Expression

This New Style…. What is it? What could it be?

Mar 24, 2025

When I think about how I’ve defined my art before, I can say with utmost confidence that it could not be defined because I did not know what I was doing 😅. I think I’ve started like all other artists emulating the artists I like, drawing cartoons, and starting with the basics like painting flowers. I started small but in the past two years or so, I’ve been on the journey to find my own style. Writing this today, I know I’ve found it with the realms of fashion and artistry.

I think I’ve known that I wanted to be in the fashion industry since I really gave some thought to a career that I would enjoy. When I was in elementary school I used to crotchet clothes with my friends at school. When I was a teenager, I used to design prom dresses for friends. I couldn’t begin to tell you why I enjoyed doing that so much but the idea that someone was even entertained by the thought of wanting to wear my designs was pretty fulfilling. And it’s still something I do and find fulfilling to this day. Though I’ve since then gone to fashion school and actively work in the industry now, I’ve felt a change in the way I would like to contribute to the fashion community. The overconsumption in the industry is frustrating enough to make me want to leave at times. I have no doubt that urge will get stronger and stronger and eventually I won’t be able to continue contributing in the way that I do. But I also know that i will still love the artistry behind fashion. So in 2022, I started working on a way to begin honoring that calling — (Sidebar: if I go even further back, this calling was actually set back in 2020 but that’s for another day 🙃) — I listened to align a divine calling with a hobby. A little co-creation 🙏🏾… and I bridged the desire to want to design fashion with my God given talent for art.

I started with my balance collection in 2022. A collection of indigenous Latin women that signified an exploration of my Mexican culture. The details and inspiration behind that collection has been documented enough. But that journey was definitely a first attempt. An added layer of trial was working purely in digital for the first time. I learned some things about what I liked to view in the composition of my balance collection but it needed more of an organic spirit.

Muse: Karen Espinosa

After sitting on it for a minute I noticed that was an opportunity to explore different methods. So I pulled out an old method that I had used before which was painting. I met this expression again in my self-portrait and the way I was beyond geeked is scary. Painting scares the shit out of me 😂. For a while I convinced myself I wasn’t good at it and literally EVERYTIME I finished a painting, I sit back and I’m confused as to why I even told myself that lie. So I leaned in. I decided to paint my community as both a thank you and a moment to uplift. I decided to paint some of my loved ones in the most elegant original designs. A show of the value to which I deeply hold them in my heart. I enjoy the idea of them having a beautiful portrait of themselves hung up in their homes. I think they’re deserving of having beautiful things. But I also drew some digitals of my favorite artists in original designs as well to entertain a momentary trial of styling.

Muse: Normani

Muse: Mariah the Scientist

The overwhelming confirmation was… I love painting 😂 and I knew this was my method and subject matter going forward. The style could change again because I still definitely experiment with other expressions and methods but this is where I’m at now. This is definitely just one layer of this new style but I’m going to have to go into detail of that other layer in another blog entry because they just turned down the lights on this work flight and I need to go to sleep so I can get on this other time zone 😴 thank you if you got this far! 🫶🏾✌🏽